Saturday, April 19, 2025

not yet




 I wonder sometimes if there are people who shed their belongings and simply find ways to wander the world. 
No ties to any nation, pedagogy or religion. 
Simply walking their way around this Earth and enjoying what it has on offer. 
It sounds utopian and dystopian. 
It sounds like an idea hatched of fantasy, and yet.  
We came from hunter gatherers. 
We lived often in migration. 
Spending summers in one local and winters in another, following resources and cycles of Earth.  
Something deep inside me has always longed to return to what is in my dna, the desire to follow the seasons, to sleep when I am tired and wake when I wake.
To follow my internal rhythms and not an external clock and calendar created by greedy men.  

This understanding that the entire thing is a house of cards and totally manufactured at the expense of every living thing also makes me wonder if exiting stage left, no bow to the audience (there never was an audience) just a silent fare thee well. Knowing that maybe next time around it will be less <this> waves hands around.  

 there has to be something...

Saturday, April 12, 2025

screaming to be heard




I once screamed into the void  to save me from myself
Marriage family
lost childhood 
white dress death
Fall in love 
a happy ever after
Run wild ride a horse.
Become a great artist 
make beautiful things
Deja vu in a small town
Over and over 
nothing changes 
decomposition 
Idyllic decay
Toxic patriotism 
False history
Fame by name
Lost it all
Made mistakes
I once screamed into the void  to save me from myself 

Saturday, April 5, 2025

spring a masterpiece



when spring has sprung and winter is done there comes this strange sadness.
like losing a friend putting them aside, as the next one blossoms before me.

there is a ghost like quality to the changes of seasons. when i sit with them i feel the movement of the universe, time stands still and hurtles forward.  
these moments flash before my eyes. 
don't blink
don't blink
what comes next is still a mystery even after 56 springs have sprung.
i savor and enjoy every single one.